The Perfect Girl Friend? I am one of the Lucky Ones Because I had you

As a sit here late at night, with nobody to talk too. My mind always turns to you. Who am I kidding when does my mind not turn to you? No one can understand, I take that back, there is someone out there that understands. I finally got what direction you kept pointing me in and I am so sorry that I was not strong enough to see that before, I do now. And with me and her together we will always keep your spirit alive. We sit and talk about times that we really did forget about. You know what Girl we have been together alot more than me and you ever realized. But I like to smile when I remember something else that us three did in High School. I just wish I had alot more memories, there was so much that we were going to do and so much that we didn't even have to plan. Everyday with you is a memory, in one way or another. Kelly you were the one friend that I had that I knew was going to be my friend through out life. We were alike in so many ways, and different that we balanced each other out just right. If they put us together you would have the perfect friend. That is something that people go there whole life looking for the Perfect Friend. Think about, when you are little you just want the girl who will come and play but not take your toys. Then you discover the root of evil, Boys. At that point you just want a girl that is going to tell you what he said on the playground. Next, Middle School if you ask me that is when you discover that you cannot trust many girls and everyone is talking about you even if they say they are a friend. High School the true test if you can go all through High School with one girl that started and finished with you and still calls you friend not acquaintance, then consider your self one of the lucky. Being an adult with responsibilities can change alot people because everyone has a different set of these responsibilities. Weather it be school and all the parties, or getting married and having kids, or just getting a job a real job. Everyone goes there own path. If you can sit and think of one person that you are friends with now that has been there for every new step that life has led you since you have gotten out of school keep a hold of them they know to much to let go of now! At least that is what I feel that you go through, you are always looking for that perfect girl friend. If you found her way back then or even if you found her now I will tell you never let her go one day without telling her how much you need her. You never know when this world is going to say you have had her to long and decides that she belongs to the man up stairs. If I just had one more day with you there is so much more I would tell you. I sit and think about the times that I would bitch about you. (I know I drove you nuts too) Instead I should have told you how nice it was to have you in my life, how much my life changed for the better since you walked back into it. I just knew that you were going to be with me for the rest of the big milestones; first broken heart, first real dates, homecomings, proms, our kido's pulling out of the driveway for the first time without us, watching are watches all night until they pulled back in safe, graduation, having to finally let them go (even if we tried to keep them forever) We were suppose to be the young grandmas because we were going to be young enough to still live life when we did let go. I know you sent me too her. I know in my heart of hearts you know that in this time in my life and I guess for the rest of my life, that I need her and she needs me. Because together, besides seeing those two beautiful smiles that look just like you, is when I feel the closest too you. I will NEVER find another you because you are irreplaceable! You were my one Perfect Girl Friend, never to be replaced, never to be forgotten. You need to remember one thing Kelly, not only do you have me that you get the tittle of the the Perfect Girl Friend from because you are among the handful that has also had the one Perfect Girl Friend from way back when all we had to worry about was her not taking our toys. So not one but two lives that you blessed. With the one thing in the world that very few have that are true and that is, Friendship. You may be gone but I hope you know you will never be forgotten, you are the bond that know holds my next journey with an old friend I will not say together, but I will say, our bond together is you. With us walking through this world without you, is a much sadder world, but together we make it a little bit brighter. I just hope some day we can actually wake up and understand. I just hope some day we actually wake up and finally have the closure that we so desperately need. I just hope some day we actually wake up and finally feel you are at peace. I just hope that day comes girl, because you have two girls down here that everyday we wake up lost in this world without you. Missing you, your true Girl Friends You may be gone but never forgotten!!!!!!!